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Friday, 30 May 2008
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Since my most recent post for months has been about SeaMonkeys, I figured a pictorial update was necessary. These are just a few shots from random happenings of recent months.
Cody's 8th birthday party.
Le' kidlets.
A weekend visit w/ my darling Johanna.
I decided to get Ripped.
Playing chaperone for school field trip to the zoo!!
A whole stairwell of cousins.
Hope everyone (if indeed anyone even Xanga's anymore) is doing well.
Saturday, 26 January 2008
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My daughter's sea-monkeys are procreating right now.
I had no idea that something that grew out of an envelope would know how to do such things. I wish they were big enough to take a picture of, but alas, they just look like little white boogers w/ microscopic black eyes.
That's all that is happening in my life that's worth noting here. Lol.
Tuesday, 08 January 2008
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a new look for the new year....
Actually, it's just my daughter's a hannah montana wig, but I think I'm inspired to grow my hair out again.
Friday, 21 December 2007
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Happy 1st Birthday Laney-lovey.
How could a year have gone by already?
But then again, how could she have only been here a year? What did we do to entertain ourselves for those other 30 years?
After her little flirtation with death over the summer, I still look at her every day as a child who shouldn't have lived. Every smile is precious. Even every little temper tantrum makes me smile and be all the more in love with her. I love every square inch of this child... inside and out. I'm so utterly thankful for her life and for a kind and generous Father who let me keep her for a whole year. I pray that He fills her lifetime with decades and decades more of those years and with health and security and most of all, with the deep and profound experiential knowledge of His relentless love for her.
I love you, my Little Lovey.
Sunday, 25 November 2007
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how to save a life...
I know that nothing I'm doing right now makes any sense at all. I know I seem insane, but it's only because sanity is itself so unfamiliar that it looks wrong when it's right in front of us. Doing it feels wrong too. But I know it's right. And so I follow through the motions trying to set aside the torrent of pain that I could otherwise focus on.
The hardest reality I've ever faced in my life is that I can't save you. I've been told this before. And I think maybe I just couldn't grasp it till now. This is your road. Every inch of it. And I can't choose for you. I can beg and plead, but I could never force you on the road that ends with you living a long and free life. If you won't choose life, there is not a single thing I can possibly do to encourage you to. Such bitter sweet freedom. Sweet in that I no longer have to try to hold up under the massive strain of that sort of responsibility. Bitter in that you hold my heart and my life and my dreams in your hands... not just mine, but theirs too. What you choose will affect every cell in our bodies and every moment of our futures. Yet we can't influence you.
If there was any way this wasn't all true, there isn't anything in the world I wouldn't do for you. No road would be too long and no mountain would be too high to climb. Unfortunately, this isn't my road nor my mountain. I pray to God you hear me. I pray that you choose to live. I pray that good things lie ahead.
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
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- Name: Heather
- State: Illinois
- Birthday: 9/5/1976
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 10/24/2005
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